Day 85

I am getting just a little bit closer .Only two weeks and one day left! It really has gone by quite fast. I did  pretty much the same ten things today as I have for the last few weeks except I decided to make cleaning out my purse tonight one of my ten things. It gets very scary in there. I am terrible at saving things for too long and carrying things around in case a disaster should happen. I  finally realized I am always preparing for something to go wrong.I have done that for as long as I can remember.

 I looked in my purse and thought what would a stranger think if they found my purse and looked through it. They would probably say I get in a hurry too much because I throw things in there and rush out the door. They might say I am indecisive. I carry four shades of lipstick and two different perfumes. They would know I have a chewing gum addiction. I plan for accidents which is why I have benadryl for allergic reactions, tweezers in case I get a sliver or if someone else does.Clippers in case I break a nail. A razor in case of a major earthquake. I can not bear the thought of not being able to shave my legs.I even shave them if I have the flu.

 I carry band aids in case some one gets cut and cough drops in case someone has a sore throat.That is just some of the things in there.On a very rare occasion I have left the house with a cell phone, cash, one tube of lipstick and gum in my jean pockets. But as I glanced through my purse I wondered what God would say about it. He might say I need to worry less about what I look like and just appreciate the way he made me. He might say I need to trust him a little more and  quit waiting for something to go wrong. He might say I am carrying around a little more baggage than just my purse.

I have bought smaller purses several times thinking I will put less in it and it will be easier to carry but before long my purse is crammed full with all those items and it becomes unmanageable again and then I go back to a bigger one.I think sometimes it is that way with burdens we carry . We will give our burdens over to God and our load will feel lighter but before long we have picked back all those items again and we are carrying a heavy load again. Now every time I see small purses it will make me think of lightening our loads. I think when Ken asks me what I want for my birthday I am going to tell him I want a small purse .I will use it but it will also be symbolic to me. Reminding me not to let my load get too heavy

Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. PSALM 68:19.