Day 75

I am three quarters of the way there. I was not sure I was going to be able to pull it off today but I did. I have been busy today and I don't feel well. That is a bad combination. I feel like I am getting sick, but I don't have time for that. I am hoping it is just a bad case of Fibromyalgia.The frustrating part is that I have been eating healthy, taking my vitamins, drinking lots of water, I have started exercising again and I wash my hands like Monk. I shouldn't get sick. Maybe it is because my white blood count is low for some odd reason. I guess there is no point in trying to figure every thing out. It is what it is.

I did pretty much the same ten things today as I did yesterday.The longer I do this the more I am really finding out what matters to me the most and what really doesn't.It is still hard to believe I am on day 75. It went by fast.I enjoy being productive more than just sitting around.I feel like I always need to do something even when I am sitting. If I go grocery shopping with someone else it is absolute torture to stand there and watch them put there groceries on the conveyor belt and not be able to help.It is the same if someone is cooking me dinner. The urge to grab a spoon and stir something is so strong sometimes I have to shove my hands in my pockets.

I think the worst thing has to be MRI's. The minute I lay on the table and I am told not to move at all and I have to be really still everything starts to itch terribly. My face, my hand, my neck, or back and it is torture. When I am finally done and can get up nothing at all itches. I am sure it is all mental. Sometimes I think we are our own worst enemy. It is like that when you try to diet. You can have a box of chocolates sitting on the counter for a week and  not want a single piece but as soon as you go on a diet and decide you are not going to eat any chocolate you all of a sudden crave chocolate more than you ever have in your life.Well, I think it is  time to hit the hay. It has been a long day!

Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you and you will honor me"[says the LORD]" PSALM 50:15