Day 73

It is evening and I have completed my tasks for the day. I spread it through out the day so it felt like I was working on it all day. I decided I needed to include exercise in my ten things weather I felt up to it or not. I have lost ten pounds but I still have a long way to go. Sometimes I think if I just weighed my ideal weight my life would be easier. I would definitely be healthier and able to do more activities I enjoy but I would still be me. Once we are saved and Christ becomes the center of our life our identity should be in him, we are no longer our own.

It is easy for our identity to become part of what ever our life is centered around. It can be your job,  your children, friends, your home ,business, a new car, or your appearance. I have seen what happens to people when they lose the one thing their identity is wrapped up in. It is like a death takes place. They go through a greiving process. I have heard people say if I just had a new house or car or a certain job they would be happy and then when they don't get it they become angry with God.

Sometimes I think God does not answer those prayers for our own good. He knows if something will become an idol to us or if it will cause us further greif down the road. It is easy to focus on the wrong things if we are not careful. I remember when I was in 5th grade and Nana bought me a red satin jacket . For about the first week that I wore that jacket I thought I was like Fonzy in his leather coat. That feeling quickly wore off and as a teenager I was certain my entire world would come to a screeching halt if I could not hang out with my friends.

I have found over the years that when I put my focus completely on God I have more peace than I could ever imagine and he meets my needs and gives me many of the desires of my heart without even asking. He wants us to want him more than anything else first.

But seek ye first the kingdom  of God , and his righteousness, and all these things shall be addded unto you. MATTHEW 6:33