Day 94

I have been blessed with another day! Only six more days to go. It has been a productive week but challenging at the same time. Do you ever deal with things that just come on out of the blue and it does not make any sense to you? Well, I do once in a while. It is panic attacks. I have had then since I was a teenager. I just did not know what they were back then.I can go several years without having a single one and then all of a sudden they will come back on for a brief period and then leave again.I don't know why.

The last week and a half have been full of them. I think today was the worst .I have learned to function with them, but I absolutely hate having them. It is really hard if you are with people and you have to act like you feel fine but inside you feel like you can't catch your breath.Today I had some running around to do but when I got home the only thing I could do was grab my bible and run to my bedroom and sit on my bed and pray. I still managed to get my ten things done this evening.I think my favorite part of the day was going on a walk with Ken after dinner. He walks around the neighborhood and prays in the evening while I do my things.

Tonight I decided to join him. It was very peaceful and really quiet. Almost the same kind of quiet when a whole bunch of snow dumps on us.It was like he took me on a nature tour. He had me stop in front of one of the yards and had me smell the air. It smelled like fresh lilacs even though it is not time for them yet and then we went a little further and the way the moon shines through the trees you can see your shadow on the pavement . I have never seen my shadow by moonlight before, after we got down a little further we could see the light from the houses across the water flickering yellow lights on the bay. I decided I am going to join him every night on his walk. I can finish what I am doing later.

He said to me, " My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9