Day 59

I have been blessed with another day! I was able to get my ten things done in a reasonable amount of time That word just made me think .Who really determines what is reasonable and what is not anyway? What some may consider reasonable may not seem reasonable to others. If some one says you are being unreasonable and you feel certain your are not, are you really? If four or five people say you are being unreasonable , you might want to examine yourself :)

I practiced Spanish and the piano today as usual. I read my books and listened to another lecture that goes with my course I am finishing. I decided to listen to the whole thing instead of ten minutes. I did some redecorating today and I added another recipe I created to my cookbook. I did more organizing in my home office and gave some TLC to my plants that I was starting to forget about. One of the things that I have really learned from this is to persevere even when I don't feel like it or even when something seems to get a little challenging. It is easy to quit something you are not required to do.

The Lord has taught me a lot about perseverance over the years.Sometimes when you have prayed about something for so long and the prayer has not been answered , you begin to think the answer must be no.I have tried to figure out many times why we get a quick answer for somethings and why other things seem to not get a response. I had a problem when I would try to sleep for about fifteen years. I would wake up after being a sleep for an hour and I would watch the clock and stress out about how little sleep I would get if I did not fall asleep soon.

 I would feel anxious and worry about being too tired to drive and as soon as I would start to nod off again I would wake up with my adrenaline pumping and I would look at the clock again and notice I had only slept for about ten or twenty minutes and I then would be wide awake and it would start all over. This usually happened if I had something important to do the next day or I was anxious about something. I would worry about having a bad night before I even went to bed and about it affecting what I needed to get done. I would lay there at night and pray and pray and beg God to help me stop this insane habit. After fifteen years of this I started to think there was no hope.

One night about a year ago I was still dealing with this and I when I prayed before I went to bed that night. I told God I was not going to look at the clock that night. I didn't care what time it was and that what ever the outcome was he was in control and that I was not going to give up hope and that I was still going to believe he could help me with my crazy situation.It has been a little over a year and I have not struggled with it since. I still have nights where I can't sleep as well due to pain and having a lot on my mind  but I don't deal with the same sleep issues I had for fifteen years anymore. Thank You Lord!!

" Let him have all your worries and cares, for he is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you."    1 PETER 5:7