Evening is finally here and I have completed my 10 things. Some days it takes a little longer, and today was one of them. It helps if I plan out all my 10 things in the morning and plug away at them, but today I decide to just go with the flow and that flow was not moving very fast.
Today I have memorized four more Spanish words. I find myself speaking Spanish words in my head off and on all day long now. I have a tendency to over think everything and the one nice thing about Speaking Spanish words in my head through out the day is that it keeps me from over thinking at least part of the time because my Spanish is limited and I can only think so much in Spanish.
I am still practicing the piano everyday as part of my ten things but I have been getting a little bored, but I am still going to stick it out. I also have a lot more healthy meals planned out and I now know what is on one of my shelves in my spice cupboard. I have a whole entire cupboard just for spices . It is hard to pass up the spice Isle in the store or at a booth at a festival. I know there is some combination of flavors I don't have in my cupboard that I am certain I just can't live with out.
I started reading a book the other day that is based on the book of Nehemiah, I thought about how God used a humble cupbearer to rebuild the city. In the natural it seems like it would be easy to run the other direction when God calls you to do something that is not in your area of expertise. Nehemiah really loved the Lord and his life was full of prayer and the Lord had given him favor.
As humans when we look for someone to do a job for us we look for someone that is reliable with the most experience.( at least I have done that anyway) But with the Lord he looks at the heart and provides the person he called to do the job with everything they will need to get that job done. I wonder how often we get in the way of what he wants to do through us because of our inadequacies , fears, and unforgiveness towards ourselves and others that we hang on to.
I remember one morning not too long ago I was sitting in front of my mirror putting on my makeup and listening to Charles Stanley on TV . He started talking about unforgiveness and I was half listening as I was getting ready thinking I don't think I have anyone that I have not forgiven and then he said what about yourself. Do you feel unforgiveness towards yourself? As soon as he said that my heart started racing and I knew it was something I struggled with . I got up and went and sat in front of the TV, he had my full attention. I will never forget what he said as long as I live. He said if you don't think that you can be forgiven than what your saying is what Christ went through when he died on that cross for your sins was not enough. I felt like the wind was knocked out of me. I had never looked at it like that. I instantly started to weep and I repented. Any time I try to entertain those negative thoughts I remind myself of his comment and those thoughts quickly leave.
Tomorrow will be two weeks, Yippee!!
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Deuteronomy 31:8
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