Day 14

Yeah ! I have lasted two weeks. Only 86 more days to go. If I have lasted two weeks so far I can make it 100 days. Today was easier than yesterday even though it took me all day to get it done. Tomorrow morning I will plan out my 10 things early.

I did not learn any new Spanish words today. I decided to work on the ones I have been learning and I wanted to make sure I understood the sentences that I was reading completely.I am almost done with chapter one. I enjoyed playing the piano a little more today. I decided to work on some songs that were a little more difficult. I like the challenge. I have my entire spice cupboard now entirely organized and another drawer in the kitchen done.I was really happy when I found my favorite Swedish meatball recipe in there. I made it for dinner tonight. I even studied geography today. It really helps not choosing the same10 things everyday.

Tomorrow I will pray about it first and see what 10 things God brings to my attention. I might be in for a surprise. It really helps when you pray about everything but sometimes it is very easy to do things automatically without thinking when you get in a hurry and it can be really hard sometimes to pray about the difficult things  or to pray when you are mad at someone or feeling depressed.

Several years ago there was a women who just about drove me insane. I had to deal with her too often, by phone or in person. This lasted for several years. I had never done anything to her but she was very cruel to me and I would be in tears when I got off the phone with her or extremely angry. I would have anxiety attacks for days before I had to call her or see her. My hands would sweat and I would get a stomach ache within moments of speaking to her.I thought for sure her whole purpose in life was to make me have a heart attack.

Ken would tell me repeatedly to kill her with kindness and to just pray for her.That was the last thing I wanted to do. It is hard to pray for someone when you want to scream. I would tell Ken he just didn't understand how I felt and he would still tell me the same thing. I told him I would give it a try but it would not work because I had a bad attitude and God wouldn't hear me. I began to pray for her and to be extra kind to her even when she was really cruel. I thought for sure I would prove Ken wrong . I continued to pray for her for  and as time went on as I prayed I began to feel compassion for her even when she spoke  harsh words. I started to see her differently. I started to see her as Jesus saw her and after a while she began to soften towards me . She could see that I genuinely cared and she started opening up to me and sharing her heart and I began to feel a Christ like love for her. It really taught me to pray no matter how I was feeling about the circumstances at the time and not just when I felt like it and that God still hears my prayers and wants me to pray no matter how I am feeling at the moment.

Let us approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:16