It has been a while since I wrote, but I have been spending a lot of time thinking and wondering, why do we make God so small? Every day we are given is another blessing from him and another day we can be a blessing to someone else. For some reason in our mind it is easier to make the enemy bigger than our God even though we don't do it intentionally.
If we allow fear to take over it can wreak havoc on our lives. We can work ourselves into a frenzy and it can be very crippling. It can keep us from having peace and living the life God intended for us. There are so many things I have feared over the years and wasted time and missed out on good things. The closer I am to the Lord the less fears I have , but the enemy knows our week spots and he does not pull any punches.
I use to worry about everything. When the children were small I would worry that the babysitter would feed them grapes or hot dogs and not cut them small enough and they would choke. If they went swimming with friends I would worry that they might drown and I would be anxious until they returned home, or got back to their friends house. I would worry about what road to take if it was icy out.
You don't have a whole lot of peace when you let those things consume your mind. I have often wondered where do fears people struggle with come from. Maybe we are worried about dealing with more pain in our lives and we get consumed with spending time on trying to prevent any more. Getting hurt by people can be a big one, especially when you know you have done nothing wrong and have given your all for them and love them dearly.
We can't let fear of getting hurt again keep us from reaching out to others. It is easy to put up a wall and decide to never trust again, to shut ourselves off from other people , to question weather they genuinely care, to wonder if they will lie about us too for some unknown reason. To fall into depression and to even question the sincerity of those closet to us.
Pretty soon you find yourself no longer reaching out , the fire and passion you had inside becomes like a tiny smoldering ember. You no longer share your testimony with others and just getting through another day seems like all you can manage to do. Well , if you find yourself in this place you are EXACTLY where the enemy wants you!!
I once thought in order to trust that you had to feel it and if you didn't feel it than you couldn't trust. I found that if I wait for a feeling than it may never happen. I have learned that sometimes we have to choose to trust even if we are not feeling it, just like choosing to forgive even if we are not feeling it. There is absolutely nothing to big for God !!! If we rely on his strength alone and not our own we will not be defeated and overcome by fear.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
~ 2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV)~
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